Tuesday 10.22am

Sitting sipping my caramel latte feeling anxious about everything and I mean EVERYTHING! It’s quite overwhelming as although I’ve suffered anxiety and depression since I was 15, this is feeling like something different.

I know ever since the C word has been with us for two years it’s had a massive affect on everyone in some way or another. I’m feeling so so guilty and angry that I wasn’t with my mum at the end f her life.

I should’ve have fought more to be there, but we were all literally cut off from our family and friends, there was just sheer terror that all of a sudden was put upon us.

I still can’t get my head round it. Seems one day we’re living our ordinary lives and the next thing we knew was a terrible virus was upon the world.


Published by Grandmabear4464

I am a 58 year old Daughter,Sister,Mama,Aunty & Grandma Bear 🐻 I have varied interests, including Writing Poetry 📝Medicine👩🏼‍⚕️Discovery Channel. I lost my dear angel mum in April 2020 to Dementia/Parkinson’s. Due to the COVID-19 outbreak I couldn’t be with my dear mum when she made her journey to heaven. 🥺 I’m still grieving and it doesn’t matter that I knew one day my dear mum was going to go, it still hit me hard. I cry most days but I’m also trying to build myself a life too, my dear mum was my life and unfortunately I couldn’t save her from such a terrible, heartbreaking disease. I raised money for research and still do to this day I pray everyday that there will soon be a cure. I write short stories but mostly poetry about my feelings, it’s like a therapy for me. To anyone who is going through or has been through such an awful sad journey please don’t be afraid to open your heart. There’s so many people going through tragic journeys we know little about but a comforting word of support and kindness goes a long way. Stay safe everyone and be kind to one another. Blessings 💜🙏🏼

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